Forecast.............

Well.. I am writing this after a long thought whether to write or not.. Because I dont want someone to laugh at me... But still I am writing this because, I know that lot of people has similar experience in their life....

This is about what would I think when I am old, about my past (which is my current future)

Assumptions:
Somewhere in say 2040-50, if I am alive and if and only if I am free for very long time, to think about myself and my life before death...

I am definitely going to think from both personal and professional aspects, as both are equally important from my experience...at least in my case, it turned out to be so... no matter whether i like it or not....

I am definitely going to repent for the serious mistakes...(which is a "live" or ongoing thing.. I am sure this is true for many who are sensitive enof)

I am certainly going to feel happy when I think that I have grown (professionally not just financially) from a person who had almost close to nil outlook in life and nothing but bus pass +10-15 Rs during Btech life...

I am certainly going to be happy if I realize that I have helped few people in spite of my circumstances.... (Though i have not yet achieved that)

I am certainly going to be happy if I have made a big contribution to ENERGY technology. (Thats my current line or focus of work, and inspired to do something good now, so that it is useful in future...Lets see)

I will be definitely missing the ones who are too good to me, but we did not travel together in life...

I will be definitely not crying ( I wish nd Hope) but dissatisfied in life (but not too much, actually its dependent on many things) for missing those ones.... (Well.. This is not for sure, because I am already becoming indifferent and insensitive... Sometimes or most of the times getting scared of being attached to any)

I will definitely laugh at myself if I have cried for someone - friend or brother or sister or whatever the relation, who did not equally reciprocate me... Or just hurted me in depth... (I am sure there are many human beings, who has similar experience in this materialistic world)

I will definitely laugh at myself when I realise that I worked on something which ended up futile (if that is professional)...

I will definitely remember the learnings and minimize pains from those failures...

I will definitely congratulate me for not being fancy about life... (Started doing it already)....

I will definitely thank GOD for whatever the pains as well as the successes... I think both are equally important in terms of learning...

foremost of all, i will remember those all who gave the shoulder at difficult times and became directly or indirectly a reason for my well being...

NB: This type of forecasting (which I do from past few years), helps me in assessing what is good to do and what is not? Overall, it helps me in "SELF ASSESSMENT" ... I am too scared that I should not live like an insect (so called human) which has a certain life span and dies... Rather I wish I accomplish something...Also life should be enjoyed... As Kal ho na ho....OK OK.. I should do something and stop talking like this ;-)