Paesukiren Paesukiren En Idhayam Paesikiren

Those days... I had uniqueness in thoughts.... Aspirations embedded in those thoughts... Actions embedded with those aspirations....

But now things are left to destiny... At last all of us prove that we are lesser than an average human being... Why philosophical most of the time? Because I cant do what I want? Because I don't know what to do? because I don't want to share to someone?

Hmm...

Those identities...

beliefs in genuine relationships...
looking for lyrics rather than music
looking for fragrance of the flower even if its not very beautiful...
believe in myself...

Now if I ask where all these go.. I know I have not changed much.... But those attributes (which I really love) are never a part of my day-today life these days... Being introvert most of the time actually makes one to even change the meaning of "introvert".... which actually means "deriving energy from self".....becos that is not sustainable if u dont have happiness internally...

The big reason is actually thinking more about others surrounding me than myself... Welll.. Like "Anbe Sivam" concept we can live our life like that... How far? When you yourself can't identify one single soul which listens to heart?

There are many temporary solns .. like diverting in interesting stuffs.. But they never give you even a small amount of satisfaction, if u are a normal person....

What am trying to say is...
Never ever do the mistake of letting ur destiny on someone's hand..... It can eat ur life at the end...Believe in urself... Ur strengths are always hidden... its only me, who did not completely explore it.... Cant blame any one else!!


Ps: Initially I want move this post to the private blog (diary) that I have... But I felt people can learn from MY mistakes.. I have disclosed my blog to very limited people thou...

This title is from famous tamil song which means " Speaking.... Speaking from my heart"

The Old Days.. Smiles...

Sometime back, there was a big nostalgic feelings about the last era , when things were non-mechanical and njoyable in life... This post continues with the same nostalgic feelings...

Some nostalgic memories of those old days in India - hmm.....world has changed and we also changed for the world L
Read through all the way!!!

Are you missing those days? Sometimes we do

Doordarshan Logo










Doordarshan' s Screensaver











Dekh Bhai Dekh













Ramayan












Mile Sur Mera Tumhara









Turning Point











Alif Laila








He Man









Vicco turmeric,
Nahin cosmetic
Vicco turmeric ayurvedic cream





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Washin powder Nirma, Washing powder Nirma
Doodh si safedi, Nirma se aayi
Rangeen kapde bhi khil khil jaaye








I'm a Complan Boy (Shahid Kapoor) and I'm a Complan Girl (Ayesha Takia)









How did one survive growing up in the 70's, 80's and 90's?
We had no seatbelts, no airbags and sitting in the back of a truck was a treat...
Our baby prams had the most gorgeous lead based colours...
No such thing as tamper proof bottle tops...

Opening kitchen cupboards was a breeze... as safety locks were unheard off...
Cycling was like a breath of fresh air...
No safety helmets, knee pads or elbow pads, with plenty of cardboards between spokes to make it sound like a motorbike...

When thirsty we only drank tap water, bottled water was still a mystery...
We kept busy collecting bits & pieces so we could build all sort of things ... and we were fearless on our bikes even when the brakes failed going downhill...
We were showing off how tough we are, by how high we could climb trees & then jumping down....It was great fun....
We could stay out to play for hours, as long as we got back before dark, in time for dinner...
We walked to school, or sometimes we even rode our bike.
We had no mobile phones, but we always managed to find each other.... How? No one knows...
We lost teeth, broke arms & legs, we got cuts and bruises and bloody noses.... nobody complained as we had so much fun, it wasn't anybody's fault, only ours
We ate everything in sight, cakes, bread, chocolate, ice-cream, sweet sugary drinks, yet, we stayed skinny by fooling around.


And if one of us was lucky to find a 500 ml Coca Cola bottle we all had a swag from it & guess what? Nobody picked up any germs...
We did not have Play Stations, MP3, Nintendo's, I-Pods, Video games, 99 Cable TV channels, DVD's, Home Cinema, Mobile phones, Home Computers, Laptops, Chat-rooms, Internet, etc ... BUT, we had REAL FRIENDS!!!!
We called on friends to come out to play, never rang the doorbell, just went around the back...
We loved being let loose in the big bad world...without bodyguards...
We played with sticks and stones, played cowboys and Indians, doctors and nurses, hide and seek, soccer games, over and over again...
When we failed our exams we were given a second chance by simply repeating the same grade...without visiting psychiatrists, psychologists or counselors...
Such were the days...
We had freedom, success, disappointments and responsibilities. ..
Most of all, we learned to respect others...

Are YOU from that generation?? If that's the case, email this to all your friends from the same era...
Maybe this message will help them forget the stress that surrounds us these days....and just for a few moments puts a smile to their faces as they remember what life was really like in the old days......

NB: Got a fwded mail ... Have cut and put here whatever i felt as true :-)... So all the ones shown in "italics" are copied from that email :-).. Nice to know lot of people feels the same.. So that shows India will not change completely... These days even terrorists have so much knowledge about the technology, so that they are misusing it to kill people...

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Wishes Outside this Era....

This era... We have everything to get done via net and PC.. There are good effects due to this 'sophistication". We no longer wait in queue to pay our bills, electric, phone, etc.. But there are many people like me who still have lot of wishes outside this era.. Away from such a mechanical life that we have currently..

Few to list are:

• A wish to play with those ducks hopping over the farms..
• A wish to play with the kids running over the farms..
• A wish to eat hot murukkus during the cold - rains sitting near the veranda of house..
• A wish to go and do those poojas every pradosham, krithigai, margazhi month, etc..
• A wish to wait for those "hand written letters " from grand parents and sitthi.
• A wish to hide on those sun shades and backyard of house, when mom scolds for not drinking the milk..
• Waiting late night without sleep for father to return and enjoy those hugs and "relish choclates" he brings every night...
• A wish to make rangolis every day mng during margazhi month along with the neighbours.
• A wish to get up early, water the plants and pluck those jasmine flowers growing at home to make our own malaas..
• A wish to enjoy those filter coffees made by mom
• A wish to enjy those feasts (vada , payasam) on banana leaves during every auspicious occasions...
• A wish to continue those fights with my brother for cheating me while playing chess, carrom, etc...
• etc, etc......................

Most of them are childhood memries, but not just "child hood" and that was a different era altogether...

The smell of aharbathi at home used to lift the moods.. Now, by the time we reach the home after the traffic , we can only get the smell of polluting gases... Forget about India, with the demanding money and work , lot of indians are getting settled abroad and in fact they are so proud to hold the green card... I too have left my home almost 5 years now, for the sake of study and work. Sometimes I repent for this. Thou I know life would be much more difficult without the current educational and money we earn. Though it is still just a overnight journey, but I see lot of differences between this cosmopolitan bangalore and chennai. Even in chennai, the place i belong is somehwat traditional, you have lot of other places in chennai where the life is equivalently mechanic and more modern...In my current place, almost in every house, u can see people who dont know their neighbours..

As usual, I think a lot about where I do miss to undertsand what I want. How Can I make myself to feel the same spirits (which I used to have in my childhood days in those conservative traditioanl places) inspite of living in a big city? NB: I am usually like this ...

I found only one answer: A very generic answer: " in life we get something at the loss of something else"...

Thats very true here. It is upto me to decide now how long I want to inspire myself in the current researcher job Vs how long I want to enjoy the essence of life at such a nice beautiful conservative place... Or I should focus now on creating such an environment ... I meant I can do all those things even in this so called modern banglore.. It requires some efforts .. That's it... At least till I am in this job..

An another Q that use to come: Am i not changing myself with the current change in environment ? The answer is probably right.. But I dont see anything wrong or I dont feel that I am losing something.. As long as I know what kind of things and environment I like, it is left upto me to live the way I want... I mean I am happy to be like this - Unmodernised... Hope I will change my environment and way of life.. Or go back at some time of my life permanently to such a place which I miss now...